Quiet morning

I'm enjoying some alone time this morning, as my 13yr old daughter stayed at her friend's house last night..I was saying to Tom that it's a different kind of quiet knowing I'm in the house alone..it's nice..and also gives me the opportunity to write on here..(-:

My shoulders are very sore this a.m..consequence of all the digging and heavy manual work yesterday..so I expect I won't be gardening until after lunch and lots of coffee today!

Back in febuary, I think it was, I set my mind to stay where I am in this house. I wasn't keen when I moved here..it kind of felt like someone elses home and it's taken me a long while to 'feel' it as my own. I think that all changed when I made the deffinate decsion to stay..like the house 'felt' me wanting to be here and became responsive to my energy..we're mixing quite well now and especially with spring being here, everything feels more..alive.

So when I made the decision to stay and not move back south, I had the overwhelming urge to plant something! I looked around in my seed tin and found beetroot seeds..coriander and I had some garlic..'what the heck!' I thought..nothing ventured nothing gained..

My emotional health had recently taken a mega battering and I felt very very fragile and broken, and it was taking me all my strength to get through each day as positively as possible, mainly for my daughter's sake. But you know, as soon as I started putting some old compost (I found in the shed from the previous tennants) into plant pots, it felt like something shifted in me. My hands filled with compost as I carefully put it into the pots, everything became focused on that small area around me..my concentration was only on that planting..that  moment..and all other negative feelings disappeared for that time..I was excited..I remembered the peace and beauty I felt when I'm with Nature..the acceptance and freedom.

The prospect of helping to create new life..the prospect of growing food by myself..feeding my child from my garden..creating a space for wildlife and tiny eco systems..everything reminded me of who I am in this life, as I placed the seeds carefully in the pots..added the water..and waited with hope and anticipation, for spring..
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Nursery in my kitchen..sprouting garlic and germinating beetroot.. (-: